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{{tab}}I stopped near a rather short middle aged man who, at a spot where the grass had been swept away to allow the gravel path to go to the edge of the water, was com­plain­ing bitterly. It ap­pears that the gentle­man was feed­ing the ducks, and had thrown bread near one of two cygnets. When a duck­ling had gone after it, one of the swan parents had at­tacked him{{dash}}the duck­ling. The gentle­man did not like this, and was try­ing to hit the swan with a stone. He sent his little girl{{dash|about six{{dash}}grand­daughter I think}}to get him stones, but she came back with a branch, with which he tried to reach the swan, with much ex­plan­a­tion to the people around. I en­gaged a dia­logue with him, ex­plain­ing that the swan was only trying to pro­tect its young; that it was per­fectly natural; that the duck­ling was unhurt; that if he (the gentle­man) con­tinued to try to hurt the swan, I (the speaker) would push him (the gentle­man) into the water. He yelled and shouted and in­sulted me, and then stopped and went on feed­ing the ducks. The swan came a little closer in search of food, and the gentle­man reached out waving his branch and trying to hit the swan, and as I had prom­ised him, I pushed him into the lake. | {{tab}}I stopped near a rather short middle aged man who, at a spot where the grass had been swept away to allow the gravel path to go to the edge of the water, was com­plain­ing bitterly. It ap­pears that the gentle­man was feed­ing the ducks, and had thrown bread near one of two cygnets. When a duck­ling had gone after it, one of the swan parents had at­tacked him{{dash}}the duck­ling. The gentle­man did not like this, and was try­ing to hit the swan with a stone. He sent his little girl{{dash|about six{{dash}}grand­daughter I think}}to get him stones, but she came back with a branch, with which he tried to reach the swan, with much ex­plan­a­tion to the people around. I en­gaged a dia­logue with him, ex­plain­ing that the swan was only trying to pro­tect its young; that it was per­fectly natural; that the duck­ling was unhurt; that if he (the gentle­man) con­tinued to try to hurt the swan, I (the speaker) would push him (the gentle­man) into the water. He yelled and shouted and in­sulted me, and then stopped and went on feed­ing the ducks. The swan came a little closer in search of food, and the gentle­man reached out waving his branch and trying to hit the swan, and as I had prom­ised him, I pushed him into the lake. | ||
− | {{tab}}That evening I dis­covered the anarch­ists at the Sor­bonne. They are much more organ­ised in France, much more polit­ic­ally active, and they have played a large part in the whole struggle. Since then I have had some inter­est­ing dis­cus­sions with them, and often drop in there. They hold forums similar to those at the Odéon, ex­cept that theirs are held to tell people about anarch­ist ideas, to answer questions, and to {{p|206}}allow debate on their the­or­ies. Un­for­tun­ately, these three func­tions in one meet­ing live very un­easily together. If you are going to tell people about your ideas, you stand up and ad­dress them. If you are answer­ing ques­tions about anarch­ism, someone asks a ques­tion, say, {{qq|What, com­rade, is the place of bird-<wbr>watching in the fu­ture liber­tar­ian so­ciety after the re­volu­tion has de­stroyed the state, com­rade?}} and you stand up and answer, say­ing unto him, {{qq|In a liber­tar­ian so­ciety, com­rade, bird-<wbr>watch­ing will be one among many activ­ities en­joyed by free­dom-<wbr>loving anarch­ists living in an inter­na­tional feder­a­tion, and there will be no fron­tiers to hinder birds from migrat­ing from time to time to | + | {{tab}}That evening I dis­covered the anarch­ists at the Sor­bonne. They are much more organ­ised in France, much more polit­ic­ally active, and they have played a large part in the whole struggle. Since then I have had some inter­est­ing dis­cus­sions with them, and often drop in there. They hold forums similar to those at the Odéon, ex­cept that theirs are held to tell people about anarch­ist ideas, to answer questions, and to {{p|206}}allow debate on their the­or­ies. Un­for­tun­ately, these three func­tions in one meet­ing live very un­easily together. If you are going to tell people about your ideas, you stand up and ad­dress them. If you are answer­ing ques­tions about anarch­ism, someone asks a ques­tion, say, {{qq|What, com­rade, is the place of bird-<wbr>watching in the fu­ture liber­tar­ian so­ciety after the re­volu­tion has de­stroyed the state, com­rade?}} and you stand up and answer, say­ing unto him, {{qq|In a liber­tar­ian so­ciety, com­rade, bird-<wbr>watch­ing will be one among many activ­ities en­joyed by free­dom-<wbr>loving anarch­ists living in an inter­na­tional feder­a­tion, and there will be no fron­tiers to hinder birds from migrat­ing from time to time to other places for the pleas­ure of other anarch­ist bird-<wbr>watchers in those other places, com­rade.}} And if you are al­low­ing debate on anarch­ist ideas, then the chair­man should di­rect the argu­ment without enter­ing into it. The func­tions are in­com­pat­ible, the con­se­quences obvi­ous and the forums less useful than they might be. How­ever, when things do not get mixed up, they do in fact give the people who come a lot of useful in­form­a­tion on anarch­ist ideas. Usually there is a brief sum­mary of the idea of a feder­al­ist so­ciety and how it might be organ­ised, as well as an at­tack on the par­lia­ment­ary {{qq|demo­cracy}} in which the sole polit­ical activ­ity of the mass, and its sole power, is to mark a cross on a piece of paper once every few years, and in France today, to say a blind un­quali­fied yes or no to an elderly pa­ter­nal­ist auto­crat. Also, the forums may do a little to help dispel the aura of terror which in France still sur­rounds the words {{qq|anarchy}} and {{qq|anarch­ist}}. |
{{tab}}On Monday I went to the {{popup|BN|Bibliothèque nationale de France}}, but they were short-<wbr>staffed be­cause of the {{w|Métro|Paris_Métro}} strike and were not open­ing the Réserve, where my books were. I went to the {{w|Biblio­thèque de l{{a}}Arsenal|Bibliothèque_de_l'Arsenal}}, but they were not issu­ing books for the same reason. So I went back to the Sor­bonne. That after­noon I met an Amer­ican law teacher and free­lance journal­ist called Joe, who was try­ing to get some per­sonal stories on the {{qq|nuit des bar­ri­cades}} of 10-11 mai; as he speaks no French, I went along with him for the evening, and heard a re­mark­able ac­count by the daughter of a French ambas­sador, a first-<wbr>year med­ical stu­dent, about seven­teen, tiny, with a very young face; she told of what had hap­pened and how she had got on, and I was moved and ap­palled at the barbar­ity of the events, but much more at their juxta­pos­i­tion to this little girl. I was con­scious not so much of her sex, but of her youth; at the total in­con­gru­ity of this tender thing, and the shields, the yard-<wbr>long weighted trun­cheons, the nerve-<wbr>jump­ing crack of gren­ades and the blind­ness and tears of the gas, the noise and the dirt of the street, and the fear. The fear of the {{w|CRS|Compagnies_Républicaines_de_Sécurité}}. | {{tab}}On Monday I went to the {{popup|BN|Bibliothèque nationale de France}}, but they were short-<wbr>staffed be­cause of the {{w|Métro|Paris_Métro}} strike and were not open­ing the Réserve, where my books were. I went to the {{w|Biblio­thèque de l{{a}}Arsenal|Bibliothèque_de_l'Arsenal}}, but they were not issu­ing books for the same reason. So I went back to the Sor­bonne. That after­noon I met an Amer­ican law teacher and free­lance journal­ist called Joe, who was try­ing to get some per­sonal stories on the {{qq|nuit des bar­ri­cades}} of 10-11 mai; as he speaks no French, I went along with him for the evening, and heard a re­mark­able ac­count by the daughter of a French ambas­sador, a first-<wbr>year med­ical stu­dent, about seven­teen, tiny, with a very young face; she told of what had hap­pened and how she had got on, and I was moved and ap­palled at the barbar­ity of the events, but much more at their juxta­pos­i­tion to this little girl. I was con­scious not so much of her sex, but of her youth; at the total in­con­gru­ity of this tender thing, and the shields, the yard-<wbr>long weighted trun­cheons, the nerve-<wbr>jump­ing crack of gren­ades and the blind­ness and tears of the gas, the noise and the dirt of the street, and the fear. The fear of the {{w|CRS|Compagnies_Républicaines_de_Sécurité}}. | ||
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{{tab}}On Tues­day, I went to the BN, but they were all on strike, so I could not do any­thing. (These two days I was try­ing to con­tact J.P. which I fin­ally did, and ar­ranged to call on him on Wednes­day at 10 a.m.) I read a little on Tues­day after­noon, both work and cur­rent events. You must ima­gine too the enorm­ous amount of news­print being de­voured in Paris by every­one in these tense days. The strike was spread­ing and spread­ing; by Tues­day the number of strik­ers was in the mil­lions. On Tues­day evening I met a {{w|Finnish|Finns}} girl, journal­ist and {{p|207}}trans­lator, and talked about trans­la­tion and events in Paris until 2 a.m. | {{tab}}On Tues­day, I went to the BN, but they were all on strike, so I could not do any­thing. (These two days I was try­ing to con­tact J.P. which I fin­ally did, and ar­ranged to call on him on Wednes­day at 10 a.m.) I read a little on Tues­day after­noon, both work and cur­rent events. You must ima­gine too the enorm­ous amount of news­print being de­voured in Paris by every­one in these tense days. The strike was spread­ing and spread­ing; by Tues­day the number of strik­ers was in the mil­lions. On Tues­day evening I met a {{w|Finnish|Finns}} girl, journal­ist and {{p|207}}trans­lator, and talked about trans­la­tion and events in Paris until 2 a.m. | ||
− | {{tab}}Wednes­day morn­ing I called on J.P., who seems to be quite a pleas­ant fellow. I worked there from 10 till 1, poking by nose in that time into all twenty-<wbr>five box-<wbr>files of papers, tak­ing note of one or two inter­est­ing things. At a rate of seven minutes per box two inches thick, I obvi­ously did no­thing but skim through: but I found one par­tic­u­larly curi­ous thing, a manu­script which ap­peared to be the last half of a novel, but which I did not recog­nise at all. It looked to me like the second half of a work | + | {{tab}}Wednes­day morn­ing I called on J.P., who seems to be quite a pleas­ant fellow. I worked there from 10 till 1, poking by nose in that time into all twenty-<wbr>five box-<wbr>files of papers, tak­ing note of one or two inter­est­ing things. At a rate of seven minutes per box two inches thick, I obvi­ously did no­thing but skim through: but I found one par­tic­u­larly curi­ous thing, a manu­script which ap­peared to be the last half of a novel, but which I did not recog­nise at all. It looked to me like the second half of a work of which the first had been pub­lished as an {{qq|un­fin­ished}} novel. I put it aside for further study. |
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− | {{tab}}That evening there was a big demon­stra­tion, called by the stu­dents to pro­test against the gov­ern­ment{{s}} ac­tion in for­bid­ding [[Author:Daniel Cohn-Bendit|Cohn-Bendit]]{{s}} re­turn to France. I took part, and it was in­deed an amaz­ing af­fair. A crowd of up to 10,­000 people, chant­ing slo­gans, but most of all, sing­ing the {{w|Inter­na­tion­ale|The_Internationale}} and chant­ing {{qq|Nous sommes tous des juifs al­le­mands}} (We are all {{w|German Jews|History_of_the_Jews_in_Germany#Jews_in_Germany_from_1945_to_the_reunification}}). I was enorm­ously moved{{dash}}as I have been time after time in these last days. We marched towards the {{w|As­sem­blée Na­tio­nale|Palais_Bourbon}}, but were not al­lowed through to demon­strate in front (that evening they were de­bat­ing the {{w|op­po­si­tion|Federation_of_the_Democratic_and_Socialist_Left}} fore­doomed {{w|cen­sure|Censure}} mo­tion). There I had my first sight of the CRS drawn up for ac­tion. I had seen them often enough in the days before, in coaches with the win­dows pro­tected by thick mesh, hang­ing around the {{w|Pont des Arts|Pont_des_Arts}}. But here they were drawn up in line three or four deep right across each of sev­eral side roads off the {{w|Bou­le­vard St. Germain|Boulevard_Saint-Germain}}, where we were, and across the bou­le­vard itself. We were thou­sands, they were I sup­pose under a hund­red in each side street, con­sider­ably more on the bou­le­vard: but, but. They wear close-<wbr>fitting, gleam­ing {{w|hel­mets|Riot_protection_helmet}}, with a double thonged strap under the chin; {{w|jack­boots|Jackboot}}; thick black uni­forms with broad heavy belts; carry heavy {{w|trun­cheons|Baton_(law_enforcement)}}. They are armed also with gren­ades dis­char­ging not only {{w|tear gas|Tear_gas}}, but other {{w|gases|Chemical_weapon}} of vari­ous sorts, some of them said to be banned by the {{l|Geneva Con­ven­tion|https://www.un.org/disarmament/wmd/bio/1925-geneva-protocol}}, some, cer­tainly, of which the de­tails are secret, so that the ci­vil­ian doc­tors who treated vic­tims after the first night of the bar­ri­cades had them­selves no ac­cur­ate in­form­a­tion to guide them in treat­ment. The CRS look awfully like the {{w|SS|Schutzstaffel}} men of the war films. Cer­tainly they would have made ex­cel­lent SS men. They are, whether by na­ture or by train­ing, fitted to be {{w|con­cen­tra­tion camp|Internment}} guards. If called on to sup­port my as­ser­tion that man is a stain on na­ture, the cata­strophe of this planet, whose de­struc­tion would be a bless­ing of un­ima­gin­able magni­tude; if chal­lenged by some {{w|human­ist|Humanism}} to sup­port this con­ten­tion not by history, but {{p|208}}by living spe­ci­mens, and if I couldn{{t}} for the mo­ment find any con­cen­tra­tion camp guards or {{w|Ku Klux Klanners|Ku_Klux_Klan}} (I have men­tioned only two, and those chosen only from the ranks of those who per­se­cute their own species){{dash}}why, then a CRS man would re­fute my hypo­thet­ical human­ist quite as ad­equately as {{w|Johnson|Lyndon_B._Johnson}}{{s}} stone re­futed {{w|Berkeley|1960s_Berkeley_protests}}. (I am quite aware of the im­plica­tions of | + | {{tab}}That evening there was a big demon­stra­tion, called by the stu­dents to pro­test against the gov­ern­ment{{s}} ac­tion in for­bid­ding [[Author:Daniel Cohn-Bendit|Cohn-Bendit]]{{s}} re­turn to France. I took part, and it was in­deed an amaz­ing af­fair. A crowd of up to 10,­000 people, chant­ing slo­gans, but most of all, sing­ing the {{w|Inter­na­tion­ale|The_Internationale}} and chant­ing {{qq|Nous sommes tous des juifs al­le­mands}} (We are all {{w|German Jews|History_of_the_Jews_in_Germany#Jews_in_Germany_from_1945_to_the_reunification}}). I was enorm­ously moved{{dash}}as I have been time after time in these last days. We marched towards the {{w|As­sem­blée Na­tio­nale|Palais_Bourbon}}, but were not al­lowed through to demon­strate in front (that evening they were de­bat­ing the {{w|op­po­si­tion|Federation_of_the_Democratic_and_Socialist_Left}}{{s}} fore­doomed {{w|cen­sure|Censure}} mo­tion). There I had my first sight of the CRS drawn up for ac­tion. I had seen them often enough in the days before, in coaches with the win­dows pro­tected by thick mesh, hang­ing around the {{w|Pont des Arts|Pont_des_Arts}}. But here they were drawn up in line three or four deep right across each of sev­eral side roads off the {{w|Bou­le­vard St. Germain|Boulevard_Saint-Germain}}, where we were, and across the bou­le­vard itself. We were thou­sands, they were I sup­pose under a hund­red in each side street, con­sider­ably more on the bou­le­vard: but, but. They wear close-<wbr>fitting, gleam­ing {{w|hel­mets|Riot_protection_helmet}}, with a double thonged strap under the chin; {{w|jack­boots|Jackboot}}; thick black uni­forms with broad heavy belts; carry heavy {{w|trun­cheons|Baton_(law_enforcement)}}. They are armed also with gren­ades dis­char­ging not only {{w|tear gas|Tear_gas}}, but other {{w|gases|Chemical_weapon}} of vari­ous sorts, some of them said to be banned by the {{l|Geneva Con­ven­tion|https://www.un.org/disarmament/wmd/bio/1925-geneva-protocol}}, some, cer­tainly, of which the de­tails are secret, so that the ci­vil­ian doc­tors who treated vic­tims after the first night of the bar­ri­cades had them­selves no ac­cur­ate in­form­a­tion to guide them in treat­ment. The CRS look awfully like the {{w|SS|Schutzstaffel}} men of the war films. Cer­tainly they would have made ex­cel­lent SS men. They are, whether by na­ture or by train­ing, fitted to be {{w|con­cen­tra­tion camp|Internment}} guards. If called on to sup­port my as­ser­tion that man is a stain on na­ture, the cata­strophe of this planet, whose de­struc­tion would be a bless­ing of un­ima­gin­able magni­tude; if chal­lenged by some {{w|human­ist|Humanism}} to sup­port this con­ten­tion not by history, but {{p|208}}by living spe­ci­mens, and if I couldn{{t}} for the mo­ment find any con­cen­tra­tion camp guards or {{w|Ku Klux Klanners|Ku_Klux_Klan}} (I have men­tioned only two, and those chosen only from the ranks of those who per­se­cute their own species){{dash}}why, then a CRS man would re­fute my hypo­thet­ical human­ist quite as ad­equately as {{w|Johnson|Lyndon_B._Johnson}}{{s}} stone re­futed {{w|Berkeley|1960s_Berkeley_protests}}. (I am quite aware of the im­plica­tions of the com­par­ison.) |
{{tab}}But the CRS have made their first ap­pear­ance, having shown them­selves sin­is­ter, bulky, black, black, medium long shot, a brood­ing pres­ence which we know we shall see more of; so, we shall leave them. They will be heard from. To be con­tinued in our next. | {{tab}}But the CRS have made their first ap­pear­ance, having shown them­selves sin­is­ter, bulky, black, black, medium long shot, a brood­ing pres­ence which we know we shall see more of; so, we shall leave them. They will be heard from. To be con­tinued in our next. | ||
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{{tab}}Coming back from J.P.{{s}} flat, I had some­thing to eat (I had not stopped all day) and then walked through the {{w|Place St. Michel|Place_Saint-Michel}} on the way to the Sor­bonne. It was about six o{{a}}clock, and the usual strollers were around. There was no dis­order: yet a squad of CRS had just formed up at the end of the {{w|Pont St. Michel|Pont_Saint-Michel}}, across the whole width of the road, block­ing the bridge, carry­ing their large black {{w|shields|Riot_shield}}, ready for ac­tion. There was not the slight­est need for this: no demon­stra­tion had been called for that evening, and none was tak­ing place. If the au­thor­it­ies felt the CRS were ne­ces­sary to keep order (which seems un­likely, since the ef­fect of their ap­pear­ance in this way served ex­actly the op­po­site pur­pose), they could have stayed in their coaches, parked nearby, as they had done before, ready to inter­vene if needed. | {{tab}}Coming back from J.P.{{s}} flat, I had some­thing to eat (I had not stopped all day) and then walked through the {{w|Place St. Michel|Place_Saint-Michel}} on the way to the Sor­bonne. It was about six o{{a}}clock, and the usual strollers were around. There was no dis­order: yet a squad of CRS had just formed up at the end of the {{w|Pont St. Michel|Pont_Saint-Michel}}, across the whole width of the road, block­ing the bridge, carry­ing their large black {{w|shields|Riot_shield}}, ready for ac­tion. There was not the slight­est need for this: no demon­stra­tion had been called for that evening, and none was tak­ing place. If the au­thor­it­ies felt the CRS were ne­ces­sary to keep order (which seems un­likely, since the ef­fect of their ap­pear­ance in this way served ex­actly the op­po­site pur­pose), they could have stayed in their coaches, parked nearby, as they had done before, ready to inter­vene if needed. | ||
− | {{tab}}I went to the Sor­bonne and had a talk with some people I had | + | {{tab}}I went to the Sor­bonne and had a talk with some people I had met, two couples, one an eld­erly rail­way­man and his wife, all anarch­ists. I don{{t}} know what time it was when I left them, but we had heard that there was al­ready trouble at the Place St. Michel, and I headed back there. |
{{tab}}That was the flash­point of Thurs­day night{{s}} riots. The police bar­rier had at­tracted a large crowd, many of them stu­dents, and in­sults had been hurled at the CRS. It is farily cer­tain that many of those who hurled the in­sults were {{qq|{{w|pro­vocateurs|Agent_provocateur}}}}, in­tend­ing to start trouble; it is less easy to say whether they were ex­trem­ists from the left wing or the right, or even, im­prob­able though it sounds, work­ing for the gov­ern­ment, {{p|209}}to give the public the im­pres­sion that the stu­dents were in the wrong for start­ing it all. Anyway, the in­evit­able fin­ally hap­pened, stones and rub­bish were thrown at the CRS, back came gas gren­ades, and the Place St. Michel and the {{l|Place St. André des Arts|https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Place_Saint-Andr%C3%A9-des-Arts}} be­came a battle­field. The {{qq|service d{{a}}ordre}} of the stu­dents tried in every way they could to stop it, but it was use­less, partly be­cause of the ex­aspir­a­tion, partly be­cause of the feel­ing of solid­ar­ity. The police ad­vanced, the gren­ades and the stones flew, and soon the {{w|pavé|Sett_(paving)}} was being dug up, the thick pierced iron plates that sur­round the base of the trees pulled up, and bar­ri­cades went up on the Bou­le­vard St. Michel. | {{tab}}That was the flash­point of Thurs­day night{{s}} riots. The police bar­rier had at­tracted a large crowd, many of them stu­dents, and in­sults had been hurled at the CRS. It is farily cer­tain that many of those who hurled the in­sults were {{qq|{{w|pro­vocateurs|Agent_provocateur}}}}, in­tend­ing to start trouble; it is less easy to say whether they were ex­trem­ists from the left wing or the right, or even, im­prob­able though it sounds, work­ing for the gov­ern­ment, {{p|209}}to give the public the im­pres­sion that the stu­dents were in the wrong for start­ing it all. Anyway, the in­evit­able fin­ally hap­pened, stones and rub­bish were thrown at the CRS, back came gas gren­ades, and the Place St. Michel and the {{l|Place St. André des Arts|https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Place_Saint-Andr%C3%A9-des-Arts}} be­came a battle­field. The {{qq|service d{{a}}ordre}} of the stu­dents tried in every way they could to stop it, but it was use­less, partly be­cause of the ex­aspir­a­tion, partly be­cause of the feel­ing of solid­ar­ity. The police ad­vanced, the gren­ades and the stones flew, and soon the {{w|pavé|Sett_(paving)}} was being dug up, the thick pierced iron plates that sur­round the base of the trees pulled up, and bar­ri­cades went up on the Bou­le­vard St. Michel. | ||
− | {{tab}}The CRS had four enorm­ous lorries side by side across the whole width of the Bou­le­vard, ad­van­cing slowly up­hill. Night had fallen, and the tear gas was so thick that it was dif­fi­cult to see even if your eyes were not stream­ing tears. Through the haze came flashes{{dash}}some­times the lights of news photo­graph­ers, some­times, I think, some form of gren­ade strik­ing. The CRS don{{t}} throw the gren­ades, they have mech­an­ical throw­ers which send them a long dis­tance and with con­sider­able velo­city, which in itself con­sti­tutes a con­sider­able hazard when the gren­ades are thrown hap­hazard into a crowd. I can test­ | + | {{tab}}The CRS had four enorm­ous lorries side by side across the whole width of the Bou­le­vard, ad­van­cing slowly up­hill. Night had fallen, and the tear gas was so thick that it was dif­fi­cult to see even if your eyes were not stream­ing tears. Through the haze came flashes{{dash}}some­times the lights of news photo­graph­ers, some­times, I think, some form of gren­ade strik­ing. The CRS don{{t}} throw the gren­ades, they have mech­an­ical throw­ers which send them a long dis­tance and with con­sider­able velo­city, which in itself con­sti­tutes a con­sider­able hazard when the gren­ades are thrown hap­hazard into a crowd. I can test­ify to this, as I in­volun­tar­ily stopped a gas gren­ade with my left leg, get­ting a large bruise and a severe limp. |
− | {{tab}}I was very fright­ened. I do not think I am a coward. I think that given a rifle and prefer­ably a little train­ing, I could fight. If they are over there with rifles and | + | {{tab}}I was very fright­ened. I do not think I am a coward. I think that given a rifle and prefer­ably a little train­ing, I could fight. If they are over there with rifles and we are over here with rifles, I do not think I would run. But to stand your ground with no weapon, no pro­tec­tion{{dash|God, how del­ic­ate and fra­gile this flesh stuff is when there is a bang, and you find you are run­ning}}to ignore the tear gas{{dash}}which is bad, there is no doubt: you can stand it quite a time, at least I can, but comes a mo­ment when you are blinded, when your eyes burn un­con­trol­lably and you are in the middle of the Bou­le­vard St. Michel and there are two enorm­ous bangs, you can{{t}} open your eyes and you are run­ning across this naked flat plain stretch­ing away to the kerb, and blun­der­ing into people as blind as you, your eyes burn­ing, until you stag­ger into a shop front and put some­thing hard be­tween you and the fly­ing gren­ades, and then stumble away along the houses try­ing to keep your eyes shut with the terror of the newly blind for­cing them open, trying to see to run away from this hell. And if you run far enough, out of the worst of the gas, and your eyes stop burn­ing, you look back and see that you have escaped from hell, the hell of the {{w|medi­eval paint­ers|Hieronymus_Bosch}}. All around, black­ness, and in the centre, il­lum­in­ated by the tall lick­ing flames from the bar­ri­cades, hazy and flick­er­ing against the fires, through the steam-<wbr>cloud of gas you see dan­cing fig­ures, male and female, yell­ing and jump­ing, bend­ing down to pick up some­thing to throw it through the flames into the cloud and dark­ness beyond. Around them, crashes and bangs, and from a cyl­in­der on the ground the smoke rushes as if an im­prisoned {{w|genie|Jinn}} had been let loose: you ex­pect him to form in the upper dark­ness and loom above the fig­ures, who duck and run, and then go back to face that huge dark­ness beyond. And you know what sort of courage that is, and you know you haven{{t}} got it. |
{{p|210}}{{tab}}On Friday morn­ing I dragged my­self out of bed after about four hours sleep and went to my usual café for break­fast. The Place St. Michel was a wreck, and even at nine in the morn­ing there was tear gas in the air, sting­ing the eyes and nos­trils. I was limp­ing a little, and con­scious that any police­man could easily de­duce why. It had been worse the previ­ous night. I had finally taken refuge in the Sor­bonne as I found dif­fi­culty in walk­ing, and as my way home led me through the CRS which­ever way I went. Inside the Sor­bonne the atmo­sphere was that of a siege, and seri­ous dis­cus­sion took place as to how the place could be de­fended. I thought the place in­defens­ible against a gas at­tack, which would be deadly in the en­closed spaces even if only tear gas were used; but it was clear that if an at­tack came, the Sor­bonne would be de­fended room by room, floor by floor, stair by stair. | {{p|210}}{{tab}}On Friday morn­ing I dragged my­self out of bed after about four hours sleep and went to my usual café for break­fast. The Place St. Michel was a wreck, and even at nine in the morn­ing there was tear gas in the air, sting­ing the eyes and nos­trils. I was limp­ing a little, and con­scious that any police­man could easily de­duce why. It had been worse the previ­ous night. I had finally taken refuge in the Sor­bonne as I found dif­fi­culty in walk­ing, and as my way home led me through the CRS which­ever way I went. Inside the Sor­bonne the atmo­sphere was that of a siege, and seri­ous dis­cus­sion took place as to how the place could be de­fended. I thought the place in­defens­ible against a gas at­tack, which would be deadly in the en­closed spaces even if only tear gas were used; but it was clear that if an at­tack came, the Sor­bonne would be de­fended room by room, floor by floor, stair by stair. | ||
− | {{tab}}It was not at­tacked. I tried later to leave, and found that no­body was al­lowed to go out. The reason I was given by the stu­dent{{s|r}} service d{{a}}ordre was that the CRS out­side were club­bing down any­one seen leav­ing. When I was al­lowed to go, at about two a.m., I was told that I did so at my own risk. I soon dis­covered what this meant. There were four CRS men at the corner, and as I came down the steps and across the square on the op­posite side of the road to them, they shouted in­sults at me with the obvi­ous hope that I might answer back. I | + | {{tab}}It was not at­tacked. I tried later to leave, and found that no­body was al­lowed to go out. The reason I was given by the stu­dent{{s|r}} service d{{a}}ordre was that the CRS out­side were club­bing down any­one seen leav­ing. When I was al­lowed to go, at about two a.m., I was told that I did so at my own risk. I soon dis­covered what this meant. There were four CRS men at the corner, and as I came down the steps and across the square on the op­posite side of the road to them, they shouted in­sults at me with the obvi­ous hope that I might answer back. I promptly de­cided that I could not under­stand a word of French, and went on. I felt re­lieved that I had de­veloped the habit of always carry­ing my pass­port, argu­ing that for a for­eigner the worst that could hap­pen was a severe beating-<wbr>up and de­port­a­tion. I ran less danger than most, but I was ter­ri­fied. To avoid them as much as pos­sible I took a most round­about route to my hotel off the Place St. Michel. |
− | {{tab}}J.P. and I were anxious to find the missing manu­script and work on this mys­tery, but be­cause of the strikes we were badly ham­pered. One man who might well know some­thing of what had hap­pened to the ms. after its pub­lica­tion lived in {{w|Tours}}, and we did not have his tele­phone number. Fin­ally we de­cided I should hitch-<wbr>hike to Tours that day | + | {{tab}}J.P. and I were anxious to find the missing manu­script and work on this mys­tery, but be­cause of the strikes we were badly ham­pered. One man who might well know some­thing of what had hap­pened to the ms. after its pub­lica­tion lived in {{w|Tours}}, and we did not have his tele­phone number. Fin­ally we de­cided I should hitch-<wbr>hike to Tours that day, since other­wise I might miss him if he were out over the week­end, and we did not want to wait till the Monday. There I should give my letter of intro­duc­tion to B. and find out what I could. |
{{tab}}I got there at about five-<wbr>thirty, and B. wel­comed me most warmly, in­vit­ing me to dinner at his home. With him and his family I watched {{w|de Gaulle|Charles_de_Gaulle}}{{s}} tele­vision speech, which must surely be worth a prize as the anti-<wbr>climax of the year. We spent a happy evening talk­ing shop: B. was ex­cited about the dis­covery but could tell me no­thing about the miss­ing ms. | {{tab}}I got there at about five-<wbr>thirty, and B. wel­comed me most warmly, in­vit­ing me to dinner at his home. With him and his family I watched {{w|de Gaulle|Charles_de_Gaulle}}{{s}} tele­vision speech, which must surely be worth a prize as the anti-<wbr>climax of the year. We spent a happy evening talk­ing shop: B. was ex­cited about the dis­covery but could tell me no­thing about the miss­ing ms. | ||
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{{tab}}''Nothing could be more fool­ish than for us and the Amer­icans to smirk to see the {{w|French Pres­id­ent|Charles_de_Gaulle}} in trouble with his {{w|syn­dic­al­ist|Syndicalism}} stu­dents and work­ers.'' | {{tab}}''Nothing could be more fool­ish than for us and the Amer­icans to smirk to see the {{w|French Pres­id­ent|Charles_de_Gaulle}} in trouble with his {{w|syn­dic­al­ist|Syndicalism}} stu­dents and work­ers.'' | ||
− | {{tab}}''These pres­ent dis­con­tents run vastly more widely. We are not all So­cial­ists now. We are all syn­dic­al­ists now, in a new sense. We | + | {{tab}}''These pres­ent dis­con­tents run vastly more widely. We are not all So­cial­ists now. We are all syn­dic­al­ists now, in a new sense. We want to have a real say in our own af­fairs. It is a crisis, not just of af­flu­ence, but of demo­cracy{{dash}}and of the so-<wbr>called {{w|people{{s}} demo­cra­cies|People's_democracy_(Marxism–Leninism)}}, too.'' |
{{tab}}''It is in their re­sponses to all this that all the rulers are now about to be tested. Not just Pres­id­ent de Gaulle. Not just Mr. {{w|Wil­son|Harold_Wilson}}. Not just the ab­dic­at­ing Pres­id­ent {{w|John­son|Lyndon_B._Johnson}} and the con­test­ants for his crown. Not just the creak­ing re­gimes of {{w|East­ern Europe|Eastern_Bloc}}. All of them.'' | {{tab}}''It is in their re­sponses to all this that all the rulers are now about to be tested. Not just Pres­id­ent de Gaulle. Not just Mr. {{w|Wil­son|Harold_Wilson}}. Not just the ab­dic­at­ing Pres­id­ent {{w|John­son|Lyndon_B._Johnson}} and the con­test­ants for his crown. Not just the creak­ing re­gimes of {{w|East­ern Europe|Eastern_Bloc}}. All of them.'' | ||
<div style="text-align: right;">{{dash}}''{{w|Donald Tyer­man|Donald_Tyerman}},'' {{w|{{sc|evening stand­ard}}|London_Evening_Standard}}, 21.5.68.</div></font> | <div style="text-align: right;">{{dash}}''{{w|Donald Tyer­man|Donald_Tyerman}},'' {{w|{{sc|evening stand­ard}}|London_Evening_Standard}}, 21.5.68.</div></font> | ||
− | |}{{tab}}I was de­pressed. First I had missed the night of the 10th-11th May, and now this. The trade union lead­ers were ne­go­ti­at­ing di­rect with the Gov­ern­ment on a pro­gramme of claims{{dash|the weary old claims that were ne­ces­sary in them­selves, but so ir­rel­ev­ant at this point. Shorter hours, higher min­imum wages, earlier re­tire­ment for cer­tain classes of worker, better so­cial secur­ity}}for the French work­man, whose con­di­tions had de­teri­or­ated so much, and par­tic­u­larly for the lowest paid French worker, these things were vital. Try­ing to live my­self on thirty-<wbr>five {{w|francs|French_franc}} a day in Paris, I failed to see how any man could pos­sibly stay alive on the min­imum wage of under 400 | + | |}{{tab}}I was de­pressed. First I had missed the night of the 10th-11th May, and now this. The trade union lead­ers were ne­go­ti­at­ing di­rect with the Gov­ern­ment on a pro­gramme of claims{{dash|the weary old claims that were ne­ces­sary in them­selves, but so ir­rel­ev­ant at this point. Shorter hours, higher min­imum wages, earlier re­tire­ment for cer­tain classes of worker, better so­cial secur­ity}}for the French work­man, whose con­di­tions had de­teri­or­ated so much, and par­tic­u­larly for the lowest paid French worker, these things were vital. Try­ing to live my­self on thirty-<wbr>five {{w|francs|French_franc}} a day in Paris, I failed to see how any man could pos­sibly stay alive on the min­imum wage of under 400 francs per month for a forty-<wbr>hour week. But it was clear that the trade union bur­eau­cracy was play­ing the game with the ré­gime, and wanted none of a re­volu­tion. Their wish was as always to share the power with the gov­ern­ment, and keep their con­trol over the mil­lions they were sup­posed to be serv­ing. They would ne­go­ti­ate a bit extra for their sup­port­ers and order them back to work like good little sheep, and their names would go down in history. And the work­ers would let them­selves be fooled again. They {{p|211}}had been woken up by the stu­dents, and with­out any in­struc­tions from the top, they had started to strike which their lead­ers had not wanted. They had shaken the French ré­gime to its found­a­tions, and shown just how power­ful they were. Now they would go back to their tor­pid ex­ist­ence for a few francs extra a week, with­out even turn­ing out the gov­ern­ment. I had a cold, a head­ache, and no hope for the strike. |
{{tab}}That night I had the dream I have from time to time, after which I always wake un­easy and dis­orient­ated. It is so vivid, and I so much want to stay in it, that when I wake, it is as if I came from real­ity into a dis­tor­tion and ca­ri­ca­ture of the real. The un­real­ity of that day could be put down to this, and per­haps to the awful soli­tude of a Paris Sunday. That day the usual Sunday after­noon outing of the Pari­sian bour­geois family took the shape of a walk around the prin­cipal battle fronts to gape at the debris, heads shak­ing at the de­vast­a­tion. The Latin Quarter was more crowded that after­noon than I have ever seen it. From the be­gin­ning of the af­fair, there had been a cer­tain amount of tour­ist at­trac­tion qual­ity about the Sor­bonne and what was going on there, and no doubt a great many people came along to see the wild men, as they would have gone to see the go­rillas at the zoo. More­over, the stu­dent re­volu­tion in Paris, at least, was the big­gest and most ex­cit­ing {{qq|hap­pen­ing}} one could ima­gine, and I had re­flec­ted that in fact this height­ened vivid­ness with which we lived was surely one of the things which had to be kept, or at least re­mem­bered. But on this after­noon, it was no longer a ques­tion of people par­ti­ci­pat­ing to some degree in what was going on. This was spec­tator pass­ive­ness again. you sit in front of the one-<wbr>eyed monster and ooh, ah, look at that, ooh road ac­ci­dent, ah {{w|Viet­nam|Vietnam_War}}, bang CRS, and you get the extra kick of see­ing places you know as a back­ground for the blood­let­ting. So you take your Sunday after­noon stroll down there to see, and you take your camera along. Look daddy, that{{s}} where that man got bashed. Stand there in front of the bar­ri­cade and let me take a photo of you{{dash}}that{{s}} it, you stand on top of it and hold a stone in your hand. Click. Sou­venir of the bar­ri­cades. In the {{l|Rue des Ecoles|https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rue_des_%C3%89coles_(Paris)}} there were two cars to­gether which had been twisted wildly out of shape; it was dif­fi­cult to see how such a pecu­liar mal­form­a­tion had been achieved. These were the fa­vour­ite spots for pho­to­graph­ers, but for every one who snapped the wrecks there were five who snapped their wife or hus­band or girl friend or entire family stand­ing on or in front of them. I am told that during the {{w|Tet of­fens­­ive|Tet_Offensive}} in {{w|Saigon|Ho_Chi_Minh_City}}, people were put­ting up plat­forms and selling seats for places from which you got a good view of the fight­ing. I find no dif­fi­culty in be­liev­ing it. | {{tab}}That night I had the dream I have from time to time, after which I always wake un­easy and dis­orient­ated. It is so vivid, and I so much want to stay in it, that when I wake, it is as if I came from real­ity into a dis­tor­tion and ca­ri­ca­ture of the real. The un­real­ity of that day could be put down to this, and per­haps to the awful soli­tude of a Paris Sunday. That day the usual Sunday after­noon outing of the Pari­sian bour­geois family took the shape of a walk around the prin­cipal battle fronts to gape at the debris, heads shak­ing at the de­vast­a­tion. The Latin Quarter was more crowded that after­noon than I have ever seen it. From the be­gin­ning of the af­fair, there had been a cer­tain amount of tour­ist at­trac­tion qual­ity about the Sor­bonne and what was going on there, and no doubt a great many people came along to see the wild men, as they would have gone to see the go­rillas at the zoo. More­over, the stu­dent re­volu­tion in Paris, at least, was the big­gest and most ex­cit­ing {{qq|hap­pen­ing}} one could ima­gine, and I had re­flec­ted that in fact this height­ened vivid­ness with which we lived was surely one of the things which had to be kept, or at least re­mem­bered. But on this after­noon, it was no longer a ques­tion of people par­ti­ci­pat­ing to some degree in what was going on. This was spec­tator pass­ive­ness again. you sit in front of the one-<wbr>eyed monster and ooh, ah, look at that, ooh road ac­ci­dent, ah {{w|Viet­nam|Vietnam_War}}, bang CRS, and you get the extra kick of see­ing places you know as a back­ground for the blood­let­ting. So you take your Sunday after­noon stroll down there to see, and you take your camera along. Look daddy, that{{s}} where that man got bashed. Stand there in front of the bar­ri­cade and let me take a photo of you{{dash}}that{{s}} it, you stand on top of it and hold a stone in your hand. Click. Sou­venir of the bar­ri­cades. In the {{l|Rue des Ecoles|https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rue_des_%C3%89coles_(Paris)}} there were two cars to­gether which had been twisted wildly out of shape; it was dif­fi­cult to see how such a pecu­liar mal­form­a­tion had been achieved. These were the fa­vour­ite spots for pho­to­graph­ers, but for every one who snapped the wrecks there were five who snapped their wife or hus­band or girl friend or entire family stand­ing on or in front of them. I am told that during the {{w|Tet of­fens­­ive|Tet_Offensive}} in {{w|Saigon|Ho_Chi_Minh_City}}, people were put­ting up plat­forms and selling seats for places from which you got a good view of the fight­ing. I find no dif­fi­culty in be­liev­ing it. | ||
− | {{tab}}That evening I was cheered by meet­ing an Amer­ican called D. He is a re­mark­able talker, who handles the English lan­guage as one rarely hears it handled, in a style which re­called slightly the prose of {{w|Thomas Pynchon|Thomas_Pynchon}}. His syn­tax is more elabor­ate than is the case in usual speech, but there is no sense of ped­antry, merely that of a man ma­nip­u­lat­ing lan­guage to ex­press co­her­ently and poet­ic­ally a com­plex struc­ture of ideas and an in­volved nar­rat­ive. The final re­sult is real poetic prose{{dash}}{{p|213}}not {{w|purple patch|Purple_prose}} prose, but true evoc­at­ive lan­guage which brings to life the con­cepts it ex­presses. As to the ideas, the nar­rat­ive, the con­cepts them­selves, they were the pro­duct of a rampant para­noia, the wild mag­ni­fi­cent im­pos­si­bil­it­ies of a mind con­cerned with a world where the com­put­ers are all inter­linked and a small dedi­ca­ted band of men are striv­ing to avert the cata­strophe whose signs are the stu­dent re­volts, the Viet­nam con­fer­ence, the {{w|Demo­cratic prim­ar­ies|Democratic_Party_presidential_primaries,_1968}} and the tak­ing over of a mental hos­pital by {{w|Brit­ish intel­li­gence|British_intelligence_agencies}}, who use {{w|ECT|Electroconvulsive_therapy}} to brain­wash people who have learned too much about the con­spir­acy. That man would be certi­fied with­out hes­it­a­tion by any com­pet­ent psy­chi­at­rist, {{w|locked away|Involuntary_commitment}} and treated. | + | {{tab}}That evening I was cheered by meet­ing an Amer­ican called D. He is a re­mark­able talker, who handles the English lan­guage as one rarely hears it handled, in a style which re­called slightly the prose of {{w|Thomas Pynchon|Thomas_Pynchon}}. His syn­tax is more elabor­ate than is the case in usual speech, but there is no sense of ped­antry, merely that of a man ma­nip­u­lat­ing lan­guage to ex­press co­her­ently and poet­ic­ally a com­plex struc­ture of ideas and an in­volved nar­rat­ive. The final re­sult is real poetic prose{{dash}}{{p|213}}not {{w|purple patch|Purple_prose}} prose, but true evoc­at­ive lan­guage which brings to life the con­cepts it ex­presses. As to the ideas, the nar­rat­ive, the con­cepts them­selves, they were the pro­duct of a rampant para­noia, the wild mag­ni­fi­cent im­pos­si­bil­it­ies of a mind con­cerned with a world where the com­put­ers are all {{w|inter­linked|Internet}} and a small dedi­ca­ted {{w|band of men|Cyberwarfare}} are striv­ing to avert the cata­strophe whose signs are the stu­dent re­volts, the Viet­nam con­fer­ence, the {{w|Demo­cratic prim­ar­ies|Democratic_Party_presidential_primaries,_1968}} and the tak­ing over of a mental hos­pital by {{w|Brit­ish intel­li­gence|British_intelligence_agencies}}, who use {{w|ECT|Electroconvulsive_therapy}} to brain­wash people who have learned too much about the con­spir­acy. That man would be certi­fied with­out hes­it­a­tion by any com­pet­ent psy­chi­at­rist, {{w|locked away|Involuntary_commitment}} and treated. |
− | {{tab}}On Monday the de­tails of the agree­ment reached be­tween gov­ern­ment and unions were pub­lished; and the work­ers who were to rat­ify the agree­ment re­fused to do so. I was amazed and cheered. On Tues­day the search for the ms. con­tinued, and I nursed | + | {{tab}}On Monday the de­tails of the agree­ment reached be­tween gov­ern­ment and unions were pub­lished; and the work­ers who were to rat­ify the agree­ment re­fused to do so. I was amazed and cheered. On Tues­day the search for the ms. con­tinued, and I nursed my cold as I waited to see how de Gaulle would react to this defi­ance. We all waited. In the {{popup|Salle des Anars|Anarchist Room}} at the Sor­bonne, I looked at the books. The room had been{{dash|is}}a small library, in which are stored mainly theses which have been written on quite the most re­mark­able vari­ety of sub­jects. There was a curi­ous dis­con­tinu­ity be­tween all this buried learn­ing and the living ideas that were the pres­ent, less tan­gible oc­cu­pants of the build­ing. Yet I found a link, a thesis which listed the con­tents of the {{qq|cahiers}} or lists of claims, re­quests, com­plaints and pro­tests drawn up in the Paris area, for the meeting of the {{w|Etats Généraux|Estates_General_of_1789}} in 1789. |
{{tab}}On Wednes­day, as it began to seem more and more likely that an interim gov­ern­ment would be formed and {{w|gen­eral elec­tions|French_legislative_election,_1968}} called, J.P. and I went to see another man who might give us in­form­a­tion, but again with­out suc­cess. But on Thurs­day morn­ing we dis­covered that the ms. was at the pub­lish­er{{s}}, where it had been ever since pub­lic­a­tion; the strike, of course, was the reason why we had not been able to estab­lish this in the first place. I ar­ranged to work on the new ms. when it had been copied, at some more pro­pi­tious time, and since I could do little more now, I de­cided to pack my bags and try to get a flight back to {{w|London}}. {{w|Sky­ways|Skyways_Coach-Air_Limited}} told me that if I wanted to come to their ter­minal, I could take a chance on get­ting a va­cancy, and I did this, and waited in the lounge for the chance to get away. De Gaulle, who had dis­ap­peared the previ­ous day to think over the de­ci­sion he had to take, and thus given rise to great specu­la­tion, mainly on the lines that he was going to re­sign, was to speak on the radio at four-<wbr>thirty. There were over a dozen of us around the radio when he spoke, to say that he had de­cided to stand firm, to keep his {{w|Prime Min­ister|Georges_Pompidou}}, that he would keep the coun­try from the threat­ened dic­tat­or­ship (gasp of aston­ish­ment from the listen­ers) and the inter­na­tional Com­mun­ist con­spir­acy. The auto­crat was going to hold out till the end, and it was im­pos­sible at that mo­ment to give even the wild­est guess as to what that end might be. | {{tab}}On Wednes­day, as it began to seem more and more likely that an interim gov­ern­ment would be formed and {{w|gen­eral elec­tions|French_legislative_election,_1968}} called, J.P. and I went to see another man who might give us in­form­a­tion, but again with­out suc­cess. But on Thurs­day morn­ing we dis­covered that the ms. was at the pub­lish­er{{s}}, where it had been ever since pub­lic­a­tion; the strike, of course, was the reason why we had not been able to estab­lish this in the first place. I ar­ranged to work on the new ms. when it had been copied, at some more pro­pi­tious time, and since I could do little more now, I de­cided to pack my bags and try to get a flight back to {{w|London}}. {{w|Sky­ways|Skyways_Coach-Air_Limited}} told me that if I wanted to come to their ter­minal, I could take a chance on get­ting a va­cancy, and I did this, and waited in the lounge for the chance to get away. De Gaulle, who had dis­ap­peared the previ­ous day to think over the de­ci­sion he had to take, and thus given rise to great specu­la­tion, mainly on the lines that he was going to re­sign, was to speak on the radio at four-<wbr>thirty. There were over a dozen of us around the radio when he spoke, to say that he had de­cided to stand firm, to keep his {{w|Prime Min­ister|Georges_Pompidou}}, that he would keep the coun­try from the threat­ened dic­tat­or­ship (gasp of aston­ish­ment from the listen­ers) and the inter­na­tional Com­mun­ist con­spir­acy. The auto­crat was going to hold out till the end, and it was im­pos­sible at that mo­ment to give even the wild­est guess as to what that end might be. |
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So it was, perhaps, in the first instance, but things have changed. The students have taken over the University completely. The lecture rooms are crowded with committees discussing the whole movement—
And what will come out of it? Not much perhaps: in fact, my guess would be, concessions in words from the government, soothing noises, a few reforms, a scapegoat or two—
4.10 a.m. Les Halles, always a sight worth seeing—
View from the Island
On Saturday the Students’ Union held its defiant demonsration. Boycotted once more by the communists, dismissed as pointless folly or crazy adventurism by many well- |
I am writing this in the courtyard of the Sorbonne. I look up to the roof, and there flying in the wind is a sight I have never seen before: a flag with no decoration, no addition, no national symbol: a plain red flag. And I can’t stop myself from shedding tears.
8.45 p.m. Saturday, May 25th. I ought to have kept a detailed day-On Friday, I did a little work at the Bibliothèque Nationale, very unenthusiastically. On Saturday, however, I got very interested in a particular edition of a novel which seemed matter for an article, and worked madly all day. I was at the Sorbonne again that evening; that was the night I went on to the Odéon.
The Odéon Théâtre de France was taken over by students, including drama students, and was thrown open 24 hours a day as a free forum for discussion. It is a remarkable sight, the house packed with people, and three or four organisers in the centre aisle trying to direct the discussion. I say trying, because it is an appallingly difficult task. What happens roughly is that everyone is invited to put forward his views, and at any given moment, in a crowded theatre, a number of people would like to air their opinions, whether from delight in hearing their own voice, pleasure in showing off before a large audience, violent disagreement with the last speaker or the one three before him, disagreement with some other aspect such as the whole idea of a free forum unless it allows only the expression of the correct views, disagreement with the handling of the proceedings, desire to correct the last speaker’s facts, desire to correct the last speaker’s opinions, desire to alter the last speaker’s attitude, desire to beat the last speaker’s head in, wish to break up the proceedings, desire to help along the argument, or a wish to silence everyone who is making such a racket and spoiling the whole affair for everyone, and why do all these people yell so that you can’t hear the speaker, so you bawl at the top of your voice “SILENCE”.
And yet there is— Then I slept on Sunday till nearly midday, got up and went to the ménagerie at the Jardin des Plantes. I fed peanuts to the elephant, admired the alligators, crocodiles, turtles and tortoises, flamingoes, saw a just-
I continued to the Bois de Vincennes, and there, in search of some green and perhaps a goose or two, failing which, a mallard, I passed through quite the largest functioning fairground I ever saw. Well, it was marked green on the map. However, I got to the other end and found green—
I stopped near a rather short middle aged man who, at a spot where the grass had been swept away to allow the gravel path to go to the edge of the water, was complaining bitterly. It appears that the gentleman was feeding the ducks, and had thrown bread near one of two cygnets. When a duckling had gone after it, one of the swan parents had attacked him—
On Monday I went to the BN, but they were short-
Wednesday morning I called on J.P., who seems to be quite a pleasant fellow. I worked there from 10 till 1, poking by nose in that time into all twenty-
View from the East
France is the first Western country to demonstrate that the social mechanism created two centuries ago does not correspond to the needs any more. The revolutionary action that has served notice that the idea of a workers’ self- |
But the CRS have made their first appearance, having shown themselves sinister, bulky, black, black, medium long shot, a brooding presence which we know we shall see more of; so, we shall leave them. They will be heard from. To be continued in our next.
On Thursday morning I went again to J.P.’s flat, and confirmed that the ms. was indeed part of the “unfinished” novel. When I told J.P. this he was incredulous, and we decided I should look through the documents for the ms. of the published section; it was missing, and I could not find it. The new ms. is about 30,000 words long, and I estimated that with the already published section we had at least 80 per cent of the novel. I left a note for J.P.—
(From a literary point of view we are doing well; we have two good plots going, one social and political, one academic and personal. Will the sinister CRS destroy the valiant anarchist forum by asking them questions they can’t answer? Is our hero’s find really the long-
Coming back from J.P.’s flat, I had something to eat (I had not stopped all day) and then walked through the Place St. Michel on the way to the Sorbonne. It was about six o’clock, and the usual strollers were around. There was no disorder: yet a squad of CRS had just formed up at the end of the Pont St. Michel, across the whole width of the road, blocking the bridge, carrying their large black shields, ready for action. There was not the slightest need for this: no demonstration had been called for that evening, and none was taking place. If the authorities felt the CRS were necessary to keep order (which seems unlikely, since the effect of their appearance in this way served exactly the opposite purpose), they could have stayed in their coaches, parked nearby, as they had done before, ready to intervene if needed.
I went to the Sorbonne and had a talk with some people I had met, two couples, one an elderly railwayman and his wife, all anarchists. I don’t know what time it was when I left them, but we had heard that there was already trouble at the Place St. Michel, and I headed back there.
That was the flashpoint of Thursday night’s riots. The police barrier had attracted a large crowd, many of them students, and insults had been hurled at the CRS. It is farily certain that many of those who hurled the insults were “provocateurs”, intending to start trouble; it is less easy to say whether they were extremists from the left wing or the right, or even, improbable though it sounds, working for the government, The CRS had four enormous lorries side by side across the whole width of the Boulevard, advancing slowly uphill. Night had fallen, and the tear gas was so thick that it was difficult to see even if your eyes were not streaming tears. Through the haze came flashes—
I was very frightened. I do not think I am a coward. I think that given a rifle and preferably a little training, I could fight. If they are over there with rifles and we are over here with rifles, I do not think I would run. But to stand your ground with no weapon, no protection—
It was not attacked. I tried later to leave, and found that nobody was allowed to go out. The reason I was given by the students’ service d’ordre was that the CRS outside were clubbing down anyone seen leaving. When I was allowed to go, at about two a.m., I was told that I did so at my own risk. I soon discovered what this meant. There were four CRS men at the corner, and as I came down the steps and across the square on the opposite side of the road to them, they shouted insults at me with the obvious hope that I might answer back. I promptly decided that I could not understand a word of French, and went on. I felt relieved that I had developed the habit of always carrying my passport, arguing that for a foreigner the worst that could happen was a severe beating-
J.P. and I were anxious to find the missing manuscript and work on this mystery, but because of the strikes we were badly hampered. One man who might well know something of what had happened to the ms. after its publication lived in Tours, and we did not have his telephone number. Finally we decided I should hitch-
I got there at about five-
At about eleven he drove me back into Tours, and I went into a café to sort out my notes and drink a final beer. Hearing a transistor radio going I went to listen: riots in Paris and most bitter fighting!
It was as if one of those grenades that were flying one hundred and fifty miles away had hit me, not in the leg, but in the head. After de Gaulle’s speech, I had totally forgotten Paris, buried in talk about work; now I realised that with a shock that further rioting had been inevitable. I tried to telephone to London, which was impossible, and then tried H. in Paris, she was not in. Useless. In between attempts to telephone, I walked up and down by the fountains. Anguish at the thought that in Paris the CRS were out again at the massacre, fear for my comrades, unhappiness at being stuck here, in the provinces, powerless, horror that the people I knew at the Sorbonne might attribute my absence to cowardice. I found that I was whimpering.
When I got back to Paris on Saturday afternoon, the devastation in the Latin Quarter was remarkable; according to statistics published on Monday, in Paris a total of nearly thirteen thousand square feet of pavé had been torn up in great chunks, and as much again in scatterred patches, and seventy-
View from the Island
Nothing could be more foolish than for us and the Americans to smirk to see the French President in trouble with his syndicalist students and workers. These present discontents run vastly more widely. We are not all Socialists now. We are all syndicalists now, in a new sense. We want to have a real say in our own affairs. It is a crisis, not just of affluence, but of democracy— It is in their responses to all this that all the rulers are now about to be tested. Not just President de Gaulle. Not just Mr. Wilson. Not just the abdicating President Johnson and the contestants for his crown. Not just the creaking regimes of Eastern Europe. All of them. —
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That night I had the dream I have from time to time, after which I always wake uneasy and disorientated. It is so vivid, and I so much want to stay in it, that when I wake, it is as if I came from reality into a distortion and caricature of the real. The unreality of that day could be put down to this, and perhaps to the awful solitude of a Paris Sunday. That day the usual Sunday afternoon outing of the Parisian bourgeois family took the shape of a walk around the principal battle fronts to gape at the debris, heads shaking at the devastation. The Latin Quarter was more crowded that afternoon than I have ever seen it. From the beginning of the affair, there had been a certain amount of tourist attraction quality about the Sorbonne and what was going on there, and no doubt a great many people came along to see the wild men, as they would have gone to see the gorillas at the zoo. Moreover, the student revolution in Paris, at least, was the biggest and most exciting “happening” one could imagine, and I had reflected that in fact this heightened vividness with which we lived was surely one of the things which had to be kept, or at least remembered. But on this afternoon, it was no longer a question of people participating to some degree in what was going on. This was spectator passiveness again. you sit in front of the one-
On Monday the details of the agreement reached between government and unions were published; and the workers who were to ratify the agreement refused to do so. I was amazed and cheered. On Tuesday the search for the ms. continued, and I nursed my cold as I waited to see how de Gaulle would react to this defiance. We all waited. In the Salle des Anars at the Sorbonne, I looked at the books. The room had been—
On Wednesday, as it began to seem more and more likely that an interim government would be formed and general elections called, J.P. and I went to see another man who might give us information, but again without success. But on Thursday morning we discovered that the ms. was at the publisher’s, where it had been ever since publication; the strike, of course, was the reason why we had not been able to establish this in the first place. I arranged to work on the new ms. when it had been copied, at some more propitious time, and since I could do little more now, I decided to pack my bags and try to get a flight back to London. Skyways told me that if I wanted to come to their terminal, I could take a chance on getting a vacancy, and I did this, and waited in the lounge for the chance to get away. De Gaulle, who had disappeared the previous day to think over the decision he had to take, and thus given rise to great speculation, mainly on the lines that he was going to resign, was to speak on the radio at four-